Hi Apalit,
I admire your desire and passion to be in God's presence. I will pray that Christ may continue to bless you in your journey in faith.
I remember reading a book (confession of a saint) and it started, "My heart is restless until i find my rest in Thee."
It made me cry... cuz I share his sentiments... I am restless, I am lost... I am nothing ... without HIM.
so i began saying that phrase over and over... and reflecting on Christ's Love for me...
I was blessed to find His mercy and to touch His face.
I thank you for letting me share, and i would be honored to learn from you...
see you in my prayers
Mickey